love...to love....
to know love....
to know the love....
to know the love of.....
to know the love of Christ....
i don't even know where to begin. it's been a month & 1/2 since the break-up && i can honestly say, it's been one of the most transforming experiences ever! Everyday i wake up knowing a different part of myself. it's like i've been lost into so many things that now that i'm stripped away of the old...my true self is beginning to shine thru. && it's freckn amazing! i can't get enough of the wordd or pray enough. it's a constant now & has been since the day of the break-up. yeah, i know some people do good for a little bit then fade back to the old self but this time is different for me. My heart is truly pursuing Christ to the full extent. i have met & witnessed to more people in this month & 1/2 than my whole entire life as a christian. Glory to God!!! & NO, i am not in a relationship & don't expect to be anytime soon. I promised myself & God that I would not settle nor allow myself to fall until i had fallen directly on my face before Him. Guys, just a hint & advice..no relationship will work to it's full potential until you are fully & totally God's. Not just some of you but ALL! Don't expect to find God thru someone in a relationship. Why would you even wanna do that when you can find Him face to face for yourself!! I thank God for giving me wisdom & knowledge ...& for my new vision of what a relationship is. I recently read "the shack" & let me tell you, it blew my mind. WOW, i now see my relationship with God in brighter sense. I am honestly happy with being single. If it's only me & GOd for the rest of my life, I'm completely happy with that! there's too much going on in my life & that i know i want to see happen before i settle into a relationship but i dont want a relationship... I want a lifetime"ship"....i am so tired of the 1 year relationships that do nothing but take another piece of your heart & it's gone forever. My heart is now broken in God's hands for Him to shape into whatever He pleases. I just wish every single & taken person could realize what God has opened my eyes to. IF you chase after God's heart, He will allow you to run into someone alone the way that is pursuing Him also. & that will be beautiful!! I'm just not allowing myself to worry about tomorrow or a few months down the road. I only live for today!! I live for Him today, love the people of Yesterday & sing His songs forever!
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