Here the past couple of weeks, I have really been getting aggrevated at people. Not the type of aggrevation when someone constantly taps there foot during a test or clicking their pen during church but the type of aggrevation when someone constantly complains about their life when they claim to be christians. I don't know if it's just me or not but this is a let down to Christ. He created you & your world. For example: you go to an art show and look at all the beautiful paintings and then afterwards you complain to your friends about how some of them were painted and how ugly they look. For one, you have no write to complain about the way the picture was painting when you don't know the reason behand it. A painter paints from within, with emotion! Secondly, you will hurt the artist by saying their masterpiece isn't pretty or they didn't use all the right colors. FOR ONCE, look beyond ...look into! Think about the fact that although it may not be what you expected or the colors you wanted, it's still a creation and it's still beautiful and the artist was still Committed to it!!
Though your life may not be the way you wanted it to look or expected it to turn out, the artist still created it with His whole heart and to Him it's beautiful!!! You can make a positive impact by thinking positive and praising the Artist for His masterpiece!!! Stop complaining about how it's all being played out and start praising Him because He's still working on His creation!!! No artist gives up their painting or masterpiece. They spend every second creating what they feel in their heart until they feel every once of heart went into it! God's the same way. He's not going to paint your life and decide to move on to another one until He know's every once of Himself has went into it!!! Keep up the faith and thank the Creator for not giving up on your life!!! If you do that, you'll begin to see a different picture. What you thought was ugly and dull, will start to look beautiful and brilliant!
I have learned to stop complaining because it gets you no where. People don't want to be around people who hate their lives or constantly complain about their lives. How are we as christians going to win others to christ when WE complain about this christian life we live?? You seriously think they will want that??!! umm....no!!!! There not going to want something ugly when what they've got already looks just as good. Would someone want to buy a new couch that looked the same as the one they have already had?? NO, they want something that will top what they already have; something more colorful & brighter...CLEAN!!! Are you living a clean life?? or do you need to do some dusty and spring cleaning???
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Junior Year : 3 years coming....
School is in session, AGAIN!!! && boy have my plans changed. For the most part they have changed in a very positive way but then again they seem discouraging at the same time. Most of you that know me or have met me in the past 4 or 5 years know that my major plan for college was Speech Pathology & that i was planning to attend Alabama A&M starting this Fall*2009.
After graduation from NACC in May*2009, those plans were still in progress. Several visits to A&M seemed almost impossible but i thought deep down that if it was God's plan, then all of the visits would fall into place and i would find everything out that i would need to. Finally, the day of registration, my plans seemed to fall & crash down into a thick huge pile all around me!! WHY!!? I find out that my major was going to take 5 more years after already having 2 years of college && other information that did not help matters. I knew at that point, God did not allow this to work out for a reason. A reason i was not sure of but you just know when God wants something to happen & when He doesn't.
So after a few weeks of praying, I felt the pull to go back to northeast. After meeting several of my advisors from northeast & my sponsors thru scholarships, I decided that my best choice would be to attend northeast until i knew what God wanted me to do. With that, I registered for northeast knowing either i would go into Nursing or Special education. Though nursing sounded the best to me, I ended up choosing Special Education.
Helping others has always been a passion of mine. No matter how big or small the situation, i have always went into the situtaion knowing that GOd was on my side no matter what. I went into situations regarding others the same way. I knew that with God on my side, I could help others accomplish their dreams! Well dreams start with a good education & good loving. That is what i strive to show my students (kids) everyday...the love from me which comes from none other than Jesus Christ Himself && a great education. Thru educating younger kids, K-2, I will be able to further my dream that i've had as a little girl...to help those that no one else will reach out too; those that need that extra love & patience.
God has prepared me for this position ever since i was a little blonde long-haired big green eyed girl with only hopes & dreams of a bright future. I knew nothing about heart ache or pain except from a bruised knee or scraped elbow from which i had gotten from playing to rough with my little brother. Now as a short blonde haired ( blonde that seems to be getting darker by day) one green one brown eyed young lady with hope from her Savior that sometimes is hard to find & dreams of peace & love that she can show those around her, the heart aches i've found, have only led me closer & more passionate to Christ. These hurts will allow me to cope with those hurting around me. Those that might one day be sitting in front of me as a little child with big hopes & dreams but no heart aches or then those that might be sitting in the very back of the classroom whom as a little child, has already experince pain that which i have experienced as an adult. I only pray now that God gives me the correct word to speak into those little lives that are so very precious to Him. Lives that will one day grow up just like me & will look back at their dreams and be able to say, " I have lived my dreams!"
It will be such an amazing feeling to know, my God cared so much about my dreams that He allowed me to help build someone elses!! I can not wait to teach my first lesson, give my first speech, laugh at my first class clown, & smile my first bigg smile knowing God knew a long time ago that a long blonde haired, big green eyed little girl would be sitting in front of special needs children sharing her heart with them & impacting their dreams. =))
With Love & Peace from God, Kc
After graduation from NACC in May*2009, those plans were still in progress. Several visits to A&M seemed almost impossible but i thought deep down that if it was God's plan, then all of the visits would fall into place and i would find everything out that i would need to. Finally, the day of registration, my plans seemed to fall & crash down into a thick huge pile all around me!! WHY!!? I find out that my major was going to take 5 more years after already having 2 years of college && other information that did not help matters. I knew at that point, God did not allow this to work out for a reason. A reason i was not sure of but you just know when God wants something to happen & when He doesn't.
So after a few weeks of praying, I felt the pull to go back to northeast. After meeting several of my advisors from northeast & my sponsors thru scholarships, I decided that my best choice would be to attend northeast until i knew what God wanted me to do. With that, I registered for northeast knowing either i would go into Nursing or Special education. Though nursing sounded the best to me, I ended up choosing Special Education.
Helping others has always been a passion of mine. No matter how big or small the situation, i have always went into the situtaion knowing that GOd was on my side no matter what. I went into situations regarding others the same way. I knew that with God on my side, I could help others accomplish their dreams! Well dreams start with a good education & good loving. That is what i strive to show my students (kids) everyday...the love from me which comes from none other than Jesus Christ Himself && a great education. Thru educating younger kids, K-2, I will be able to further my dream that i've had as a little girl...to help those that no one else will reach out too; those that need that extra love & patience.
God has prepared me for this position ever since i was a little blonde long-haired big green eyed girl with only hopes & dreams of a bright future. I knew nothing about heart ache or pain except from a bruised knee or scraped elbow from which i had gotten from playing to rough with my little brother. Now as a short blonde haired ( blonde that seems to be getting darker by day) one green one brown eyed young lady with hope from her Savior that sometimes is hard to find & dreams of peace & love that she can show those around her, the heart aches i've found, have only led me closer & more passionate to Christ. These hurts will allow me to cope with those hurting around me. Those that might one day be sitting in front of me as a little child with big hopes & dreams but no heart aches or then those that might be sitting in the very back of the classroom whom as a little child, has already experince pain that which i have experienced as an adult. I only pray now that God gives me the correct word to speak into those little lives that are so very precious to Him. Lives that will one day grow up just like me & will look back at their dreams and be able to say, " I have lived my dreams!"
It will be such an amazing feeling to know, my God cared so much about my dreams that He allowed me to help build someone elses!! I can not wait to teach my first lesson, give my first speech, laugh at my first class clown, & smile my first bigg smile knowing God knew a long time ago that a long blonde haired, big green eyed little girl would be sitting in front of special needs children sharing her heart with them & impacting their dreams. =))
With Love & Peace from God, Kc
Thursday, August 6, 2009
potatoes with warts & latex gloves...that's what my summer was made of.
what a summer it has been spending 4 whole weeks in a potato shed or should i say "tater" shed...gosh that word. i can not stand to hear it! i must say though, i made a little over 1200 $$ in those 4 weeks which help pay for my braces, car repairs, & vacation. ohh && school books! Never thought sorting potatoes would bless me but it did..praise God! I could see GOD kind of laughing at me while i was saying little prays thru the day while grading potatoes....."God, please don't let me catch these nasty warts from these ""TATERS"!" "God, I love you but why so many potatoes!" "God, i know you created everything in Your image but what was you thinking when you created these!!" =) yeah i know your probably thinking i should be ashamed for praying those things but the way i see it...i was just talking to God & trying to get Him to explain His reason behind potatoes!
Spending 6 days a week & working 8-10 hours a day grading potatoes, isn't as fun as it sounds. I know i just burst someone's bubble but i aint gonna lie...it's pretty much boring! Just a fun fact, week 2 of potatoes around about 2:00 pm, i fell asleep WITH my eyes OPEN while working on the grader!!! Just try to picture that....it's funny looking back now but at the moment, i freaked out!! I started thinking about all the bad things that could have happened. My latex gloves stuck between the grader....losing a hand & then the baggers checking potatoes & finding a hand!! or letting all those wart-ty potatoes thru that should have been trashed & some little lady open her potato bag & find them & think she'll catch some type of STD from them!! i mean, it's risky busy, grading potatoes! Potato graders are to thank for potato chips & tots!!!
i've never fell asleep with my eyes open before btw!
So, with my 1st pay check i bought a mp3 player!! This would help me stay awake so i didn't have to worry about any old ladies or body parts && it would keep my mind concentrated on music instead of how many truck loads we had left. Smart thinking i might add & a very smart buy! One of the smartest i've made!!! Though i did not get every song i wanted on it, it had enough music that i played everything 3x & it pretty much kept me occupied! This is where God comes back into the picture.
A precher once said that everybody should set a goal for themselves to take 1 full day & listen to nothing but praise & worship music. Which meant from the time you got up til the time you went to bed. Every sound needed to be Godly & pure & musical. This would allow the person to realize just how much more peaceful the day is & how much more the distractions flee. I mean, just think about it. I know everyday i hear things i should. I let sounds around me distract my thoughts && i let those thoughts distract my day & my time with God. So, one day during work, i thought...i'm going to listen to nothing but worship ALL DAY! from the time i got up, til the time i went to bed!! Now I'm not perfect so there were times when i had to take the earphones out because i was on the job & had a position that had to pay close attention to any mess ups & announce them to the other graders.
Anyways, that morning started off normal. The music seemed to help keep me awake but that was about all. Nothing else was happening...spiritually. All the music was doing was playing, i wasn't allowing my spiritually ears to listen & let it speak so i said a small prayer & begin to soak up some worhsip. I begin to catch myself dancing....swaying from side to side like those black gospel choirs do. How they snap, clap, nod, stomp & shake...that was me! In my pj's practically...with blue latex gloves on, sorting potatoes. (another funny image) I noticed people pointing fingers & such & to tell you the truth, I was wondering what was going on. I didn't know if something was wrong with the potatoes or what but not for once did i think it was because of me.
As i continued to drown out the world & just listen to the messages spoken thru music, i felt tears flow down my cheeks. God began speaking thru me in His heavenly language & it felt amazing! I began praying over the potatoes...no lie! That day had been rough & the potatoes weren't passing so we were losing loads of money & not gaining any orders. As i began praying for the potatoes, God started just talking to me.
See, i had really been struggling with the fact that I hadn't been hearing from God. Yes, I had been spoken to thru preachers & Pastors but not thru my own self. & that bothered me. I've always been one to sit alone in my room & just talk to God but lately He just didn't seem to be talking back. BUT that day He spoke & it was some of the Sweetest words i've ever heard.
The song was playing "always" by Hillsong United & it says "All You are is all i want, ALWAYS, draw me close, In Your Arms, Oh, GOD, i want to be with You!" well i was saying as a prayer to Him when He spoke & said listen to those words from Jesus' point of view. & let me tell you...i felt that Gospel gangsta rise up in me. If there would have been some pew's in that shed, I would have ran them!!!! I began to realize that sometimes we get to wrapped up in us wanting HIM to hold us & love us & how bad we want to be with him but what He wants us to realize is HE wants the same. JESUS wants us to love on him & be with us ALWAYS. & that's why i hadn't heard anything. i was so caught up in the noise of myself that i couldn't hear Him whispering ,"ALL YOU ARE, IS ALL I WANT, ALWAYS!!"
GOD wants ALL OF US just like we want more of Him! & sometimes we've gotta shut up & let Him talk to us. He wants to be with us just as bad as we want to be with Him!! Although it took me grading potatoes to hear from God, i'm glad He did!! It was the right moment & time. I must admit, that whole day of nothing but worship going into my ears, was one of the best days i've had! It allowed me to meditate on Him but always it allowed the noise of myself to drown out so i only heard what He was trying to speak. So i challenge you, take a day & just let the noise be worship! You'd be surprised at what you hear!! Most of our lives are busy & loud & we have family that fuss & friends that fight but if you can't hear that noise, If your thoughts can't since that distraction....then it's able to focus on what it does hear....worship!!
Peace & Love, Kc
Spending 6 days a week & working 8-10 hours a day grading potatoes, isn't as fun as it sounds. I know i just burst someone's bubble but i aint gonna lie...it's pretty much boring! Just a fun fact, week 2 of potatoes around about 2:00 pm, i fell asleep WITH my eyes OPEN while working on the grader!!! Just try to picture that....it's funny looking back now but at the moment, i freaked out!! I started thinking about all the bad things that could have happened. My latex gloves stuck between the grader....losing a hand & then the baggers checking potatoes & finding a hand!! or letting all those wart-ty potatoes thru that should have been trashed & some little lady open her potato bag & find them & think she'll catch some type of STD from them!! i mean, it's risky busy, grading potatoes! Potato graders are to thank for potato chips & tots!!!
i've never fell asleep with my eyes open before btw!
So, with my 1st pay check i bought a mp3 player!! This would help me stay awake so i didn't have to worry about any old ladies or body parts && it would keep my mind concentrated on music instead of how many truck loads we had left. Smart thinking i might add & a very smart buy! One of the smartest i've made!!! Though i did not get every song i wanted on it, it had enough music that i played everything 3x & it pretty much kept me occupied! This is where God comes back into the picture.
A precher once said that everybody should set a goal for themselves to take 1 full day & listen to nothing but praise & worship music. Which meant from the time you got up til the time you went to bed. Every sound needed to be Godly & pure & musical. This would allow the person to realize just how much more peaceful the day is & how much more the distractions flee. I mean, just think about it. I know everyday i hear things i should. I let sounds around me distract my thoughts && i let those thoughts distract my day & my time with God. So, one day during work, i thought...i'm going to listen to nothing but worship ALL DAY! from the time i got up, til the time i went to bed!! Now I'm not perfect so there were times when i had to take the earphones out because i was on the job & had a position that had to pay close attention to any mess ups & announce them to the other graders.
Anyways, that morning started off normal. The music seemed to help keep me awake but that was about all. Nothing else was happening...spiritually. All the music was doing was playing, i wasn't allowing my spiritually ears to listen & let it speak so i said a small prayer & begin to soak up some worhsip. I begin to catch myself dancing....swaying from side to side like those black gospel choirs do. How they snap, clap, nod, stomp & shake...that was me! In my pj's practically...with blue latex gloves on, sorting potatoes. (another funny image) I noticed people pointing fingers & such & to tell you the truth, I was wondering what was going on. I didn't know if something was wrong with the potatoes or what but not for once did i think it was because of me.
As i continued to drown out the world & just listen to the messages spoken thru music, i felt tears flow down my cheeks. God began speaking thru me in His heavenly language & it felt amazing! I began praying over the potatoes...no lie! That day had been rough & the potatoes weren't passing so we were losing loads of money & not gaining any orders. As i began praying for the potatoes, God started just talking to me.
See, i had really been struggling with the fact that I hadn't been hearing from God. Yes, I had been spoken to thru preachers & Pastors but not thru my own self. & that bothered me. I've always been one to sit alone in my room & just talk to God but lately He just didn't seem to be talking back. BUT that day He spoke & it was some of the Sweetest words i've ever heard.
The song was playing "always" by Hillsong United & it says "All You are is all i want, ALWAYS, draw me close, In Your Arms, Oh, GOD, i want to be with You!" well i was saying as a prayer to Him when He spoke & said listen to those words from Jesus' point of view. & let me tell you...i felt that Gospel gangsta rise up in me. If there would have been some pew's in that shed, I would have ran them!!!! I began to realize that sometimes we get to wrapped up in us wanting HIM to hold us & love us & how bad we want to be with him but what He wants us to realize is HE wants the same. JESUS wants us to love on him & be with us ALWAYS. & that's why i hadn't heard anything. i was so caught up in the noise of myself that i couldn't hear Him whispering ,"ALL YOU ARE, IS ALL I WANT, ALWAYS!!"
GOD wants ALL OF US just like we want more of Him! & sometimes we've gotta shut up & let Him talk to us. He wants to be with us just as bad as we want to be with Him!! Although it took me grading potatoes to hear from God, i'm glad He did!! It was the right moment & time. I must admit, that whole day of nothing but worship going into my ears, was one of the best days i've had! It allowed me to meditate on Him but always it allowed the noise of myself to drown out so i only heard what He was trying to speak. So i challenge you, take a day & just let the noise be worship! You'd be surprised at what you hear!! Most of our lives are busy & loud & we have family that fuss & friends that fight but if you can't hear that noise, If your thoughts can't since that distraction....then it's able to focus on what it does hear....worship!!
Peace & Love, Kc
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